..Welcome to My Life..

So I feel sick to my stomach.. maybe it's just the heat getting to me, and making me feel like shit. I dunno..

The good news is my dad came home.. The bad.. he's in more pain then he's ever been in before. It's really depressing him watch him get angry and upset and be in pain all the time and know that there's nothing I can do about it.. I'm just glad school started.. sort of.. not really.. I just really need an out right now, and my room seems the best place for it. I just feel guilty that I'm not spending enough time with my dad, but I can't stand to watch him be in pain. I couldn't stay in the hospital rooms for more than 45 minutes because everytime he'd be in pain it was just too much. Ugh, it's all too fucking much my junior year..

Anyways, school went okay, I guess.. I'm just so alone in most of my classes it's completely depressing.. I just want to get out of this town for a month.. a year.. I had that whole Australia chance, but I didn't want to miss a month of school.. but now.. I dunno.. whatever..

I guess.. I don't know what I guess anymore.. So just drop me a line!

Music I'm Blasting : Breaking The Habit by Linkin Park
Quote of the Day: I think William Shakespeare was the wisest human being I ever heard of. To be perfectly frank, though, that's not saying much. We are impossibly conceited animals, and actually dumb as heck. Ask any teacher. You don't even have to ask a teacher. Ask anybody. Dogs and cats are smarter than we are." - Kurt Vonnegut (author of Slaughter House Five)
My Current Mood : tired, sad
Current Pain (scale of 1-10) : 8.9, almost a 9...

shit receiver
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