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So I'm so tired. I actually got 9 hours of sleep last nite to this morning. It's really amazing how long I slept without having another nightmare. My dad has to schedule the open heart surgery soon, and I'm getting really nervous. I don't even want to think about the what ifs..

The new layout is what really made me happy today. Very talented person, and I completely understand why she doesn't want credit. So just so you know, I can't do layouts, and I can't make them even that good, lol, and i DID NOT make this layout. I take no credit for it. I can make websites. lol, those are fun. At one time I had 8 going, shut 6 of them down, and now I have A Benji and Joel Fansite and a Jesse McCartney Fansite... You can say they are my obsessions!

Anyways, I have this huge headache, and my PMS is running high, along with my blood pressure. I'm getting so stressed out about my dad, and school, and link crew, and classes, and this math teacher Putnam that everyone has told me is really hard, and strict. I don't think I can handle DECA, Link Crew, all my other classes, and almost failing Math again. It just wont work. It's just really stressful going to be a junior, and almost being out in the world alone. Maybe I should take Drew's advice, and take a year off before I start college. Get some money in the bank, stay home, work my butt off, and then go to college. But I don't want everyone to be like sophomores when I go through the first college experience. Not that I know anyone who's going to St. Scholastica with me, so I'll probably be experiencing all the college stuff with new people I don't even know.

Anyways. check out this link... http://www.idobi.com/media/display_video.cfm?vid=30259 it was about Good Charlotte's Hold On on the TODAY SHOW, and I just thought I'd share. The song still makes me sad.